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You glance idly at your calendar and
note with some surprise that November 22nd has come again and gone. The mind reacts without conscious
application, leading your thoughts to a rarely visited inner sphere where you
sometimes draw a fine focus on events long past. In this constrained light, the seventy-two
hours spanning that Friday and Monday afternoon seem at first to be collapsed
into one long, monolithic instant. But
as you watch, unforgettable images begin to compete for primacy in the rising
jumble of thoughts, the mix of old emotions that pull you back to a strange
point in time.
Tallying the years since then, you
realize that people not yet born that distant afternoon have grown and raised
up children—and grandchildren-- of their own.
Soon, a second full generation will know of this thing only through the
slick gloss of magazine pages, or from the quaking imagery of the Zapruder
film. The event itself, one of the great
tremors at the epicenter of what you felt and thought in the years that formed
you, will live on directly only in middle aged or older memories, and soon
enough will linger nowhere.
For many of those of the right age,
the memory, even with its immense sadness, is cherished, perhaps like an
expired passport to some once-visited land of pleasant recollection. It is proof of passage, with an indelible
stamp demarking 'before' and 'since.'
Whatever the details of one's own personal odyssey in the interim, each
fresh perception of that cold November slows the inevitable process whereby the
vibrant spirits of that age slip from the ever-now of your consideration on
their way to joining all the other quaint sepia-tinged portraits that crowd the
attic of our national imagination.
By extension, this is of course just
another attempt to preserve some young and distant image of ourselves--against
the odds, we know, since the very essence of our train of thought rises from
the recollection of full and bloody mortality.
Still, we do our best.
Assassination, regicide, the assault
on sovereign republicanism, cold and systematic death, each of these has a
weight of its own that presses on the observant conscience, issues of specific
motive and denouement notwithstanding.
It seems therefore ridiculous that the event is of interest to scores of
millions only insofar as it can be linked to Castro, the CIA, the mafia or,
ideally, some diabolic combine of the three.
This needless tendency to hyper-dramatize the event has made it fashionable
to deride the Warren Commission Report
with its obdurate insistence on the singular marksmanship of Mr. Oswald that
noon hour. No doubt there were
stones—boulders—left unturned in the Commissioners' rush to satisfy and unify
the dazed nation. But who can truly
blame the authors for not rising above the convenient wisdom of the day,
especially once the hasty presumption of Oswald's guilt became unassailable, we
brunching with TV and the Sunday comics, he strolling out to early public
execution.
In the light of retrospect, who
really cares what the Report reported?
'Fair Play for Cuba' and the anomaly of the grassy knoll; Tippit, Ruby,
Curry and the rest; the autopsy, the strange trigonometry of the two (or three?)
projectiles? These and all the other
'facts' are just crumbs on the table of this feast of history-in-passing. When weighed against the monumental nature of
the crime itself, a trial and the subsequent exacting of official
vengeance—though filling a proper legal and technical purpose—were bound to
fail any fair test of emotional satisfaction, in all probability serving only
to excite the worst excesses of sensational journalism and speculative
commentary.
No.
At the last, full knowledge of the crime and a strict allocation of
culpability would not have been enough to transform decades of memory.
Much of the strongest imagery is of
the pageantry, the high drama of the passing of tangible force; the sheer
spectacle of the survival of State, melding an eerie sense of courtly ceremony
with the raw power and grim determinism of inevitable historical succession—an
admixture of Arthur and Shakespeare, if you like, well suited to a prince of
any epoch. All of it overriding the puny
contingencies of human indulgence and of the shattered protagonists in the
lesser, merely human, drama.
What contradictions were endured
through those days: the power of death
to deny life, and the exuberant life of the body-politic rebounding to refute
the verdict of the grave; a Friday to mourn and a Monday to remember; one
bookend tragedy and the other splendor.
This conflict of dualities has always animated the greatest achievements
in human art and understanding. The
weekend was foreordained to mimic this dynamic, echoing the lessons from those
throughout history who have thought most and deepest about life and death. At the same time, through its interweaving of
pathos and grandeur, it redefined the scope of our own imaginations and lives
as we readied to make our way, collectively and as individuals, out of what is
now merely the past.
Yet, even the most majestic panoply
needs an audience. The most lasting
rituals are also the ones that seem to be most interactive. Thanks to the long reach of television, we were
part of it, and each step along the way to Arlington seemed to have been
contrived to reach deeply into the experience of the scores of millions of
individual hearts whose common beat was, and is, the pulse of the nation.
Yes, you were there, a part of that
pulse; and though your heart has been transformed in many ways in the
intervening years, the beat goes on. No
matter where you've been or where you are, no matter what you've done in the
time since, this one day each year you find yourself standing alone again, a
part of that vast and silent throng lining Pennsylvania Avenue. You wonder when this community of mourning
will end.
Maybe this time will be the last.
Maybe.
In recent years, you've found that
many of the details seem to have grown a little less distinct. More and more, that small inner sphere, the
place where the fine focus comes and goes, is waning toward the dark. Even so, you suspect that some things will
always stay. For now, you are left with
this:
The muffled drum.
The ancient caisson.
A riderless black horse with all of
history in its wake.
