Survivors

Survivors

Wednesday, April 27, 2022

Roomful

 

©Steve King 2022

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I sit in a room

That is filling with their words,

Each sound rising as if it were anew,

Separate still and ever out of sorts.

 

I hear them even now,

Before they are complete,

Every first and last:

How these words may dwell,

Freed from their obscure and beaten shore.

 

Perhaps they do not know them in this way,

The way that I do hear them told,

The way that I can see them made.

 

But each knowing must suit as fair

As any knowing may,

As fair as mine might serve them,

Were I inclined to say.

 

Always a reach for solace,

But not for silence.

Extolling and abjuring,

That old desire to condole,

Raptures near yet ever out of reach.

 

The thought that every word

Might serve for any song,

A hint of some small hope

That swings on the blunt edge

Of this noise, this stir,

That taunts upon the busy air.

 

As if there really were a song

For every wish that’s ever heard,

As if the touch of every jumbling dream

Holds well enough to carry us along.

 

 

 

Monday, March 14, 2022

Narcissus

 ©2022 Steve King

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Do you think Narcissus knew

Every shadow in his pool

As he knelt to ponder love?

 

Did he fathom new and strange

In the darker eddies there,

That pressed the corners of his frame? 

 

As echoes of his dreams unwound

He mourned the beauty love had found.

Bitter tears rained all around,  

To fall as flowers on the dying ground.

 

Thursday, March 3, 2022

Surprise

©Steve King 2022

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i

 

Today I am surprised

That I am surprised today.

It seems I breathed an unfamiliar word,

That gathered to me, measuring the air.

A strange tongue speaking yet in stranger ones,

Wilder music to cling upon me,

Like clouds and gales upon the passive season,

Giving every name to light and dark,

And unthought visions in between.

It whispered, too, of strange desire,

Summoned old regrets,

Almost as friendly spirits after all,

That never would take flight.

All fillips to some new imagining,

And every kind of sudden thing

That once might stream the dreaming night,

But now would dance upon my busy light.

 

Leaves called in chorus,

Knee deep grasses hissed their harmonies,

Alive to me, they seemed,

Or moving with what I would take as life:

Sentinels for the far keening voice,

That distant one I must at last attend,

Each breeze now a most solemn fanfare,

Heard, unheard, now heard again,

Every falling echo leaving note,

Another prelude rising to its place,

Each gathered voice, insistent marriage

Of worship and command.

 

 

ii

 

I plumb this new world

And yet dare hope for more.

Greedy are the senses,

Filling now with my submerged intents,

Spawned from the uncertain depths

To take their turn beneath the light,

Untethered now and finally free

To fly at last from all untended hopes.

 

 

iii

 

All desire, then,

Alive with heavy mystery,

A presence come to harrow memory,

Revealing to my new regard

That which I once had labored to forget,

Or never truly knew—

Or knew, but in that street-smart kind of way

That answered with sly ease

At every call to meaning I had heard:

The reservoir of constant joke,

The turns of small evasion,

Shades of sundry casual and well-intended lies,

The measure of equivocation,

And the easy acquiescence to all things

That fair weather conviction

Might manage to evoke,

As near to truth as lies might ever be.

And yet I knew they sang some truth of me.

 

True.

Yet not so.

Not so sure

As the unyielding reach

Of every lingered love,

Whose hold would never loose

The shades of sudden and unsettled dreams.

 

Ever and unyielding,

Sure, before, hereafter,

Always and invincible,

Though not invincible

Old lovers.

 

 

 

iv

 

Captive,

A fractal specter,

Whole in these my fragments, if at all,

Fragile as a dreamless sleep,

That bears no weight of beauty.

I moved as if a stranger,

Lost upon the once known paths,

Always walking, ever waiting,

Subject now to all emergent things.

 

The old joys of the clamorous street,

These are not for me.

Not now.

Their common music resonates,

Distant and discordant,

Without time or right of place.

The old epiphanies abate.

I tire, feel the world tire,

Relentless in its hurtle,

Ever apace,

Lugging its old life

And the weight of all the new surprise,

All one and the many,

Each rupture and each union,

Confusions and the graces,

Every dread and death’s head,

The things that bloom in faintest light,

To trace for me the flow of surging dreams,

Whose bounds must bear the death of every tide,

Where every fate at last is satisfied,

The settling place of cold desire,

And shock of new surprise.

Caesura for the hum of grasses,

Subtlest harmony of breeze.

 

I am the shadow of these things.

A stubborn thing.

I am.

Still well alive in every word

Old or unfamiliar.

Alive yet in these living dreams

That any unsought word might bring.

Mindful of a sometime peace,

For restless shades that will not ease.

 

 

 

 

v

 

My thoughts may not for long forsake their times,

Though passing griefs might struggle to deny.

 

Those unfamiliar words unwind,

To frame these dreams of every kind,

All loves and shortfalls present now,

To measure, finally,

what the world endows.